Diverted

Hellowwwwww..
Been a long long week.
This week something rather special happened to me. I was given the opportunity to be selected as the head for a really big project. I can't talk about what the project is, because it's a secret. I'm not supposed to talk about the project until the result for the head of the project selection came out. No one's supposed to know who is being approached and being interviewed.

Anyway what I want to talk about is my diverted attention. Lately because of the offer, I can't stop thinking about the project. I think about it 24/7. and I think I'm becoming way too obsessed with this and not in a good way. I'm supposed to serve God and others through this project. but since the position offered to me was really  challenging and exciting I can't stop thinking about it.

I felt that I began to be unable to focus myself to God. I feel that I've lost my focus. God should be my focus. I should learn to follow and love him more and more day by day. But these days my mind is soooo crowded with the thought of whether I'm being chosen as the head of the project or not. I'm losing the real meaning of serving God and others.

I should be filled with joy and peace. Not anxiety and obsession. I need to think and dwell in the love of God and less in the love of self. I think I'm becoming obsessed with it because I don't rely on God. I fail to realize that whatever position I'd get, that would be God's best plan and I shouldn't worry a tad. I should just trust God with everything because ultimately this is His project. and this project can only be moved by Him. I shouldn't think this project is mine whether I become the head of  the project or not. I should be focused on seeing how God works in this and to be a channel of blessing.

I just have to trust God that He can and He will put my diverted heart back on track.